Coral’s Healing Room at Coralsblog.com 505-269-9242 iwritetohealmyself@gmail.com I rise early. I go to bed early. If you need me, I will make myself available to you.

Conversations with my clients…

Just settling in to reflect on my day and I am feeling tired…like hard work tired, and that is a very nice feeling…loving 7784FFC2-13EC-4200-8CD8-CCF9093108BEwhat I do helps so much, as it almost doesn’t feel like work at all.

I enjoy the conversations I have with my clients…they are so uninhibited and matter of fact, almost all of the time.

My clients with the seemingly simple issues are often more complex. Often clients with the very deep and troublesome issues, present with the most simple solutions.

Today I had clients that I have had for many years and it is beautiful to see how we have evolved together. I know them and they know me…like really know each other…

I can see where it hurts them and they can feel me on my less than stellar days…I can tell them to trust me and they do, because I’ve never given them reason not to…and sometimes out of sheer necessity, at first…and then it evolves, and almost always quickly…into the most beautiful dance you’ve ever felt with your eyes closed, and felt with your hands wide open…

Working with energy more and more and being led by Reiki and what lies in stillness has opened my work to places I could not have imagined.

I feel so blessed to be so trusted by the most vulnerable, as often when I first arrive, their eyes are paralyzed in fear, darting about, anywhere other than to my eyes…and sometimes their eyes are just blank and hollow, empty and broken…and then they aren’t anymore…Those moments, when they aren’t anymore, those are the moments that I do this for…

There is a beauty in my brand new clients, that always warms my heart  There is the wonder and then, for some of them… nervous and scared…for some of them, seizing and trembling …the reluctance to be touched and often the need, like the deep, to your soul kind of need to be touched, all at the same time…

Today, it occurred to me that maybe I do what I do as well as I do it, because I have been there and I get it…I really, truly get it, and somewhere deep inside, they know that and they can trust me to see them broken.

I could not be more blessed than to be loved and trusted like my clients love and trust me.  I know this to be true all of the time and today I felt it on a level I never felt it before and I understood like I had not understood before…

I have some pretty amazing conversations with my clients and every day, I learn so much from them. I get to be the student in  a room full of the worlds greatest teachers, every single day.

After that, I get to come home to a sanctuary full of the most amazing animals you will ever meet, with the most touching and inspiring stories. Every single one of them have loved me through the worst days of my life.

I have been very present for my clients and very distant from the sanctuary since my Mom got sick and it sure is nice to feel myself start coming home…

I am learning to slow down, to take some time to write, to meditate and medicate with my music…I am learning to listen, to hear, to understand…to talk less…

I am learning to be here now. I have been very stuck in the past and very scared of the future for a very long time. I tell my clients, all the time, “that was then and this is now…that is not your business…” and I often find it hard to believe that myself…

I do know that what you think of me is none of my business, and damn it if some days I cannot wrap around that at all…

I have forgiven, without hesitation, anyone who has ever apologized to me, from heart center…everyone that is, except for myself, up until recently.

I lose my shit sometimes, deep inside myself, deep in there where little Coral is still screaming…I lose my way…gravity escapes me and I fall to pieces…

In those moments, I’m like Baby Taos and Aliah and Rocky…and I want out…wait no, I want in…wait, it’s not that at all…I just want to be where you are…I just want to be where you are…and truly, nothing else matters…

So, I do get my clients, and again, better than I get my own dogs at times…which is highly frustrating, so I’ve been working really hard with me…on me…because It wasn’t them, it was me, for the most part…

And the thing is, they have known this all along and they have loved me through it…even when I wasn’t very lovable at all…

Working with animals has become my second nature, where I am most comfortable…where I fit in and where I matter a lot…I like it here and it makes sense to me here.

I am gifted and good at what I do in this place and it has become comfortable…second nature…home…some of my most amazing conversations have happened with these amazing beings that trust me with their hearts and their health and their well-being…

Some of the deepest conversations with some of the most elite, happen every day in my work. Some of the worlds problems, and big problems, I might add, have been solved on dog beds…in hallways and even in culverts…

In the living rooms of some of the most amazing people you will ever meet, I sit with my best friends on floors and dog beds on kitchen floors and under baby grand pianos…learning some of life’s most precious lessons…from those who know best.

I believe in the good things coming!

 

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