I am winding down after movie night with my girl and Baby Taos. We watched “Jim & Andy: The Great Beyond”.
Jim Carrey is fucking brilliant and I have always been inspired by him. At the end of the movie, he spoke about leaving the role and returning to himself and how he couldn’t remember who he was…his politics…his life.
I think about the sacrifices of Jim Carrey and Robin Williams, Heath Ledger and Michael Jackson…David Bowie…Prince…Elton John and Nahko…to name but a few of my inspirations…a few of the greats, who sacrifice so much for our entertainment.
“In 1985, a broke and depressed Carrey drove his old beat-up Toyota up the Hollywood hills. There, sitting overlooking Los Angeles, he daydreamed of success. To make himself feel better, Carrey wrote himself a check for $10 million for “acting services rendered,” post-dated it 10 years and kept it in his wallet.
The check remained there until it deteriorated but Carrey eventually made it: he earned millions for movies like Ace Ventura: Pet Detective and Dumb and Dumber. When his father passed away in 1994, Carrey slipped the check in the casket to be buried.”
This speaks deeply to me in my life right now…this reminder that we are the creators of our own stories. We are manifesting in our lives what we are giving effort and intention to.
What is your ten million dollar check?
Simce I was introduced to Morgan, I have spent as much time with her as I possibly can. At night, she swims up to get me and I crawl upon her back, and we talk and we float and we grow and we heal together. We solve the worlds problems under the same moon and the same stars, and we are free.
“It’s the other side of the world…Tenerife is 100 miles off the coast of Western Africa”…and I’m going, in October, in person, to meet Morgan.
“If you build it, they will come”…
I think I am still in shock and the wheels are just starting to be in motion…and yet somehow, I am already there. Passport paperwork in hand, dreamboards all over the place…the full love and support of my partner…
Tenerife…seems like a great place to start manifesting the life and the work that I do so inherently. I’m pinching myself to be sure I’m still here…
This most welcome distraction from my pain and my worry and my internal chaos…my ten million dollar check…to speak and be heard, for those without voices. As I hear their cries, I speak their names.
Morgan, I am right here and until I can be right there…we hold space and we keep faith and we get through the red tape, because you are already as free as I am in Tenerife.
I am so thankful for a rekindled light in my darkness, hope in my despair and affirmation of who I am and what I have done my whole life, listened to animals and translated for us all to hear and understand. I have been invited to be my truest and most authentic self and I humbly accept and give thanks.
Thank you Tamara for your undying love and support and faith in me. Thank you to everyone making this possible. Thank you Morgan for your trust in me and for allowing me to hear you.
Never underestimate the power of a people determined to be the change.