30 Day Blogging Challenge: Day 22
Your worst Habits
This is a great challenge for me! My worst habit has always been fear. I have feared and I have worried my entire life. I didn’t know there was another way…To be brutally honest with you, I never entertained the idea at all, that I did not have to be afraid. My worst habit, by far has always been fear. I am quitting this life threatening behavior cold turkey, so to speak.
Cold turkey…what in the fuck does that even mean? Please hold….okay…here we go!
“One symptom of opioid withdrawal isgoose flesh (small bumps on the surface of the skin usually resulting from being cold). When someone discontinued opioids abruptly (cold turkey), they would exhibit these visible symptoms and it was noticed their skin looked like a cold turkey.”
I have used this term for as long as I can remember…when I quit smoking…when I quit drinking…when I quit doing anything I really commit to quitting, I have always quit “cold turkey”, because I’ve honestly never been successful any other way.
This morning, writing this…for the first time, saying “cold turkey”, didn’t feel quite right to me. I believe the times they are a changin for me. Being vegan for several years, I have been mindful of my choices…much, much more mindful…ducking mindful (pun intended). Upon hitting the reset button, being heartful is much more second nature for me. Being heartful, “cold turkey” doesn’t feel right anymore. Nothing at all about a cold turkey elicits anything other than an image of discomfort and suffering for me. We have two beautiful turkeys in our front yard and we dedicate our lives to their care, which includes being sure that they are not cold. I almost just backspaced my way through the words “cold turkey” when I typed them this morning. I am glad I walked my way through the discomfort instead and that I was able to share it with you. I really do love sharing with you, you know?
I’ve other bad habits. I use words I have always used, simply because I’ve always used them. I use these words, very often without pausing to consider their deeper meaning.
Your worst habits? And more importantly…Are you going to do anything about it them, now that you have acknowledged them? That is our work, isn’t it? I mean, when we know better, we do better, right? We get what we get when we get it, as Tamara always says. When we get it…we do better.