Good late Sunday afternoon…or is it early evening?
I am experiencing high levels of physical pain and so I am having difficulty focusing. I put all of my pain in tonight’s meditation, to be recycled for the greater good of us all. I light my masters candle and burn sage and the Palo Santo, as I visualize a clearing of negative energy for us all. My insides hurt and my mind wanders to stay sane. I have not left the lime tree. In fact, the louder I turn it up, the louder I can scream from deep inside myself when his lyric hits my very soul. “I poked a hole and watched it drain out…”Whatever it is that is not right inside me, I put all of my intention on it draining out, so that I can be well again…so that you can be well again. I send love to everyone missing someone more than anything this evening. I send all of our love to Patty~Ru, our beautiful Rooster, gone to soon. We love you Patty…so, so, so much. Love to Jen and Jax as they miss Dillon…I feel you and I love you my friend. Love to each of you and healing and peace to us all. And so it is.
i don’t want to talk about my medical situation. I don’t want to talk about anything at all. I just stopped by to say that I love you. My therapist said that you cannot have chronic pain without depression, and I submit…she is right…Tamara is right….you are right…I am pretty fucking depressed. I don’t want to inflict that upon all of you. Sending all of my love and appreciating your love. Happy Sunday everyone! Goodnight.