Happy Thanksgiving eve to each of you. Prajna and I are cozied in for the night and thinking of so many of you. Prajna and I are so thankful for you…for your love, for your concern…for your grace and for your mercy over these past few weeks. We feel you and we are so thankful for you. This Thanksgiving is our first to know the depth of gratitude and thankfulness that we have come to know because of your love and your prayers and your help. We would not be here without the unconditional and undying love of each of you who loves us so, so much. Thank you. And for the heaters, from each of you who provided our heat, thank you so, so much! We like to be warm and cozy. Thank you for making it so.
Prajna has adapted nicely and made many new friends and we are most happy and peaceful and comfortable and whole when we are together. We are together as often as we can be and it feels so nice to feel and be so loved by my little bitty heart. Prajna is my reason to get up and keep going when I feel that I cannot even begin to know how to breathe. Every morning, my first prayer…Thank you God for everything. Thank you God for Prajna. Thank you God for…and as of late, for so, so many things. Thank you God, for everything. We truly are so provided for. Thank you.
We know that you’ve been worried and we want you to know that we are safe and we are okay. Our lives are much different now and we adapting. We are sad sometimes and we feel alone sometimes too. Mostly though, we are grateful to be so loved when you didn’t have to love us. You picked out better underwear and clothes for me than I have picked for myself for years, so thank you! We are so thankful to be with one other. We are working hard to get well and to put weight on. Well I am eating as often as I’m hungry and haven’t turned down a meal from any of you yet…Prajna isn’t turning treats down either though she says. We are working hard to get better and we thank you for the space to do so at our own pace. We are learning our new pace and we thank you for not taking personally, our need and our desire to be alone a lot lately. We desire alone and quiet solitude a lot and we prefer to be anonymous as much as possible right now. Thank you for gifting us that. Truly, thank you for giving us what we have asked for, as best as we know how to ask right now. And when we do emerge, thank you for always welcoming us both with open arms and hugs and love and Kleenex. Thank you.
We just wanted you to know how thankful that we are for you and how much that we love and appreciate you. Our lives are richer because of you and we are counting our blessings a lot…and you are our blessings. Thank you.
On this, the eve of Thanksgiving, we are feeling a little sad inside as we think about my Mom and how we don’t have her here with us again this year. Every year, no matter my intention, this season has been painful without my Mom and this night is no different in that way, as I miss gathering together with a family long gone from me now. I thank God that I have Prajna with me to ease the pain of being so alone tonight. For it isn’t just my Mom whom we are here without this evening…and it isn’t just her being dead that is so, so sad this year. This year the sadness goes much deeper and it spreads out much wider and tonight the empty creeped in a bit deeper…the tears leaked out a bit harder longer and I forgot to be thankful for a bit. Teardrops on Pmommas little head remind me to be thankful always, in all ways. Tonight, although we feel sad inside and a little weary, Prajna and I are thankful, most of all…and we wanted you to know that we love you.
Have a beautiful Thanksgiving with those you love the most and remember those you cannot be with, and love them a little deeper and hug them a little tighter in your arms and your heart…set a place for them at your table…raise a glass and offer up a toast…say a prayer or tell a story….do what you do and how you do it to love them and remember them that way…I know I will. Look around at who you are with and find it in your heart to know and speak your Thanks…give and receive your love…celebrate a day set aside to be thankful and be thankful for every single thing in your life, for it brought you here, to now. That truly is something to be thankful for, now isn’t it? Prajna and I believe it is and so we thank you. We love you and we wish each of you a beautiful Thanksgiving.