Sometimes inside myself I get lost. Maybe it’s because I wander aimlessly and deliberately all at the same time. I know the depths of the deep inside myself…the waters to lie in and the waters raging, and for me those waters have always been one in the same. I have seldom ventured out since being in felt more compelling…more real and more honest than being outside. Being lost inside forced me outside to find myself. Now I chose to go back in. For a visit? Maybe. For reflection? For sure. To be thankful I ventured out? For a visit, yes. Forever? For now I feel a turning inward and a circle getting smaller. I feel my need to know quest to trust dissipate as I’ve come to accept that I cannot know or trust. Not now. I cannot and so I do not.
My mind swirls slower and my heart rate slows. I steady my breathing and I close my eyes. Hands upon my chest and with all of my love…I breathe out that which does not serve me. I breathe in all of your love. I immerse myself in Rumi and I honor my commitments. Morning and evening I religiously repeat this mantra…”Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better.” It helps me and I am thankful.
This picture was hanging on the wall in a vets office today when we walked Precious home. I ask each of you to pause for a brief moment and send Precious’ Mom and Step-Mom Eileen all of your love tonight. We love you Precious. Run free baby girl. Run free. Thank you for how you loved and trusted us to be with you on your final journey today. Please come and visit often, okay?
My appointments have been amazing! My heart and my intentions have been met with truths. I have learned so much! Thank you to everyone who scheduled and showed up and paid me to do what I do! Your faith in me humbles me and I thank you, with all of my heart!
With that, I bid you all goodnight. Tomorrow is an unplug from all things…enjoy my solitude and my beautiful girl and our beautiful Sanctuary kind of day. I’m Blogging, of course, and otherwise going offline until Saturday morning, when I re-emerge for my beloved clients. Have beautiful evening! I love you! Goodnight.😴