Coral’s Healing Room at Coralsblog.com 505-269-9242 iwritetohealmyself@gmail.com I rise early. I go to bed early. If you need me, I will make myself available to you.

You are writing your own story. Make it a good one!

Good morning beautiful people! Happy Friday and what a day to make a different choice, wouldn’t you agree?

I went to bed with my body blessed by angels once again and I am so, so thankful! I went to bed next to the most amazing and beautiful girl in the world…my truest and dearest friend and my best confidant…my soulmate and my lover…the co-founder of a dream that we are building together…my anchor and my rock…and I am blessed beyond measure! I had a day full of the most beautiful and grateful clients, who pay me well and love me well and I am open and ready for some more clients like that please! I had a beautiful morning working with my colleagues, for the healing of one of our very own, and I am blessed beyond measure to be amongst such prestigious colleagues, who know and trust my work, to have me place my hands and my energy upon their best friends. I will always value and invite time like this, to give back to those who refer and share me with you, so that I can help you too and pay my bills. To everyone who loves me like a verb…thank you, and I am an open invitation for some more love like that please! My little brother and my sister checked in on me, as we have been most recently doing for one another and I will definitely have some more of that please! I had weekly tea with my very best friend, Sigrid, and I will always welcome more time and love and space and honesty and friendship, like a verb, like that, in my life! Coral and Sigrid tea time is nourishment and fuel for my soul on this journey and I am blessed! To all of these endeavors, I drove in the FJ Cruiser that I love and cherish so much, as Jesus takes the wheel, and my musical medicine blasts through the speakers, of the piece of my mom and dad that I have left, and I am thankful! I feel my beautiful and radiant cousin, Regina, in and around all of the good and positive and wonderful memories of my past and with me always on this journey and I love you so much cousin! Always, in all ways, I have room for love like Regina…thank you and more…yes please! I arrived home safe and sound at our Sanctuary in the woods, surrounded by all of my best friends…for they love me from wherever they are, to wherever I am, always and without fail or prejudice, and I am home! My health is good and getting better every day, in every way. “Every day, in every way, I am getting better and better.” And I am so thankful for my life and for those who share this journey with me. Every day begins and ends in gratitude. Every day I am better than I was yesterday. And so it is.

This is the version of how my day ended and began that I am choosing to share and to focus on. These are the parts of my day that I am pulling out to give thanks for. These moments are my focus henceforth. These are the people I choose to rejoice in and to be grateful for, as are they for me, life’s breath. Everyone and everything else, that does not serve my highest good, I release! I stand in love and for, love in all things. I believe in love and I believe in each of us. I believe, with all of my heart in the good things coming! Thank you, my brother, Nahko, for your love.

Love is an action word and I challenge each of to truly grasp this and to know this and to live this! Love in action will open up your life!! Love in words…well, we all know what that empty and often loveless love feels like, don’t we? Where there is void, to be love in action and you will fill the void. Love in action is not always easy, as it is an action, not an empty mouth full of empty promises and lies. Action, being in action and of service…very different from choosing the “right” words, wouldn’t you agree?

We all make a choice every time we open, or do not open our mouths. I am choosing to keep my mouth closed in situations where I have nothing kind to say. In this silence, I pray for peace for those whom I choose not to open my mouth to anymore. I choose to whom I speak and to whose calls I heed. I choose whose words I shall open myself up to. I give myself permission to leave when I am done. I give myself permission to choose the clients whom I can help and to charge accordingly for my time and my services. I ask the universe to bless us all that we be synced together for our highest goods. I pray that we all feel the value of the relationship we walk into together. I pray that we each be served and valued for our life’s work and our contributions accordingly. And so it is.

Have a beautiful Friday everyone! You are writing your own story today. What will you write? Let’s write a with all of our hearts, shall we?

Today is the day for answers!

Good morning everyone. I am sorry I’m struggling so much and unable to come with it like I know I am able to come with it when I am well. I have a doctors appointment this morning with my PCP. They called yesterday and My MRI results are in. With all of your love and all of your prayers and all of our faith and belief in the good things coming, I’ve no doubt that today begins the clarity needed to proceed forward with whatever needs to be done to make me well and whole and happy again. I do not pray and ask you to pray because I am not praying my harderst myself. I believe and I pray and no matter what today’s clarity reveals, I know I’ve got what it takes to get through whatever I must. Right now though, having lost about 30 pounds and feeling like I’m being gutted at my naval when I move wrong, I have lost some of my strength. Having the chronic physical pain, heightened and exacerbated by the surgery and post op pain has put a girl down. This girl needs to get the fuck back up! This girl needs whatever powers that be, to align today, to set into motion whatever needs to be to get me healthy and well. I’ve not slept in many nights without waking up in my own slimy skin, soaked clothes and hair and sheets and blankets…in my own stench, which isn’t mine at all…it is a foreign to me foul smell, soaking wet and feeling like I’m going to be ill…quickly followed by a bone chilling freezing cold and my teeth chattering uncontrollably, as I begin to cry, too exhausted to get up again and clean me up and get me dry and begin again. So lying in my own toxic waste, feeling like I’m freezing to fucking death, I shiver and cry myself to sleep.

In all of this Tamara has never left my side. Prajna has never left my side. They lie in the stench with me and lie awake sleepless, just to be near me. The toll this is taking on me is not a fraction of the toll is is taking on Tamara. 6 weeks they said and I took the first two weeks completely down and pegged myself for 5. I still haven’t really lifted anything, at least not with much assistance. I am back to crawling up into my car because if I move just like that, I feel like I’m being filleted wide open and gutted at my naval. Wearing pants hurts and the belt I have to wear to keep my pants on hurts even worse. Being around me is a fucking delight I’m sure, as I am in so much pain I can’t cook dinner without fucking it up. I can help a little better than the volunteer that didn’t bother to show up, not much better though. My girl, my soulmate and best friend, who loves me through the most painful and difficult of times… who is more than double-timing while I’m down…I love you Tamara. I am so sorry for how difficult this is for you. I love you more than anyone and I thank you with all of my heart for how you love me through and help me when I just can’t. I love you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

So today is the day for answers. And so it is. Today begins my journey to wellness, and so it is…however that needs to look. I will be in the company of my dearest and oldest friends. Sigrid is accompanying me to my appointment so that I don’t feel scared and forget stuff. Thank you Sigrid. I love you more than you know my super amazing silly friend. Thank you for always finding your way back, no matter the time and space, and for loving me more than getting caught up in holding me accountable for being always drunk and often insensitive and self-centered, in the days before. You are my dearest friend and I love you, so, so much. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Also have plans to meet one of my dearest friends I have known for almost 30 years for lunch, and I am grateful. I love this girl so much, for so long. Seeing her and the anticipation of seeing her has lifted my spirits and I am so thankful. I love you!

All if you…ever single one of you, who takes the time to send me love, especially when I am asking for so much lately, thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I love you so much and appreciate you so much!

I am off to go get some answers and to begin my journey to wellness. Have a beautiful day! I love you.