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“Close your eyes. All we’ve got is this.” Trevor Hall

Happy Saturday everyone! I love you. I apologize for my low vibing energy lately. I definitely got stuck in a rut. Fortunately, I walk with amazing angels and I rise up this morning. To each of you who has also fallen along the way, I lift you up with me this morning. With my hand outstretched before you, you’ve a choice to take hold or not, just as we all do. I’ve been unable to take hold until this morning and so with all of my love, I reach to anyone in that struggle. Just let go. Stop fearing the fall and just let go. I am in free fall right now myself. The letting go was scary and the fall has its moments of uncertainty. The bottom comes quickly some days and I’ve learned that’s okay too.

We are all in this together and I’ve been called to action. I am in the process of bringing myself forward and I believe I’m about to get a pretty swift kick in the ass to do so, so, hold on you guys…we are about to exhault our pinnacles with Aiden. All of those good things that Nahko speaks of….all of the good things coming…those good things are here already! We are about to embark up on them together.

My mind is being emptied of all of its contents. There is major demolition and renovation going on inside of me at a cellular level. All that does not serve is breaking off and being removed in truckloads. Material possessions, thoughts and ideas…ideals and expectations…wants and needs and desires…it’s all being leveled as we speak. My heart is being repaired and the thorns are carefully being removed and dislodged from my psyche. The holes are being mended and the bleeding is coming to a slowing stop. The generational pain and annihilation of broken beings many centuries ago who raped children and destroyed animals is being called front and center and I shall be responsible for the healing of this devastation. I shall be the keeper of this gate and there will be no passage until we get her locked down, sorted out, healed up and for to return to mainstream. We will not keep polluting the stream and pretending it’s not killing our oceans.

So it is written and so it shall be…so everyone hold on! We are not in practice mode any longer. This is the real deal and we are headed to our heights! I repeat, This is not a drill. Please gather your things, and only the things you really need. Leave the rest behind. Come with me. Thank you God, for everyone and everything in my beautiful life!And so it is.

Have a beautiful Saturday everyone! “Close your eyes. All we’ve got is this.” Trevor Hall

Todays Blog is inspired by Trevor Hall….thank you. Thank you. Thank you Trevor…

As I began blogging while meditating this morning, listening to “Lime Tree” by Trevor Hall, my blog wrote itself. Full credit and much thanks to Trevor Hall for the amazing inspiration from your lyrics and your soul open for us all to feel you deeply. Thanks be to Spirit for coming all the way in this morning and helping me begin to rise up, no matter what. Lots and lots of F-bombs in this one, so if that offends you, I would definitely keep reading. May give you new perspective and some introspection. The word fuck did that for my Mom, right before she died. You could not know anyone more offended than my mom, by my mouth. When I told her that her saying “fuck” had offended me, we got a “fuck you”, and she said that it was very liberating. I admit, I told her…”I told you so”.  Seriously though, if the word is offensive to you, there are many fucks in today’s blog. You’ve been warned! If you leave here, have a beautiful day. If you keep reading, open your heart and your mind, liberate yourself and enjoy! I love you!

Good morning everyone! Welcome to the healing room. We have been on a pretty rough road, haven’t we? I feel like I have been sitting stagnant, waiting for answers to help me to wellness. I cannot sit here stagnant in all of this pain any longer. I’ve been pushed to a lot of limits in my time, and I didn’t even see this one coming.

Fuck limits! Fuck sitting here in excruciating pain! Fuck watching my life go on without me. It took a while for you to find me. Fuck watching my girl killing herself because I feel like I’m sitting here dying inside myself. Fuck the inhumanity in all of this. Fuck all of our flaws. As we walk across the diamonds. Fuck the pain. It took a while for you to find me, find me. Fuck the waiting. I poked a hole and watched it drain out. Fuck the depression. I was hiding in the lime tree. Fuck feeling this way. Above the city and the rain clouds.  Fuck being invisible. And parallel to the city streets. Fuck feeling unimportant. The wick runs out and then love takes its turn. Fuck your unsigned insurance form. I spark a match and watch the candle burn. Fuck being helpless. We will last past the final round. Fuck lying here dying inside.  Find me. Fuck being rescheduled to infinity. Well I was hiding in the lime tree. Fuck being gone. I wash it down with a simple sip of wine. Fuck being silent. It took a while for you to find me. Fuck pain meds that are bandaids. We know that love is always shining. Fuck being unwell. I poked a hole and watched it drain out. Fuck having no answers. I was hiding in the lime tree. Fuck not asking the right questions. I will last past the final round Fuck CPTSD. Toast my glass to my loved ones. Fuck feeling scared. The stars they still shine. Fuck all of the appointments. I spark a match and watch the candle burn. Fuck the pain. I poked a hole and watched it drain out. Fuck not being seen. I raise my glass to all my loved ones. Fuck how my pain is hurting my loved ones. To let them know that the stars they still shine. Fuck feeling hopeless. Are broken crows beneath  our feet. Fuck not being as important as you, to you. Save me love. Fuck no pain management. Save me all the time. Fuck waiting on you to care about me. I wash it down with a simple sip of wine. Fuck the cold sweats.  Unfallen Angels and broken sounds. Fuck the fever. We will last past the final round.

Well that came out of nowhere. I do this all day in my heart and in my head. I use music as my medicine. I listen over and over again and I scream with Trevor Hall. I feel him. The lyrics in between my fucks are from the song Lime Tree by Trevor Hall. In my car, where I am an amazing singer, the funniest stand up comedian ever, standing between Wayne Dyer and Ram Dass reading for all of you, my own beautiful love writings, inspired by Rumi himself…I find me. In my morning and afternoon commute, I jump up on stage next to Nahko and I dance like a mother fucking dance ninja next to Tubby Love and Amer Lilly, with all of my soul. I hit the high notes with James Blunt and I roll in the deep with Adele herself. I hold songs and moments in Frozen in time, in those songs, and I remember them fondly as I hear you sing to me. I carry my Mom home over and over and over again with James Blunt. Nahkos Pueo, calls all of you in to bring Aiden home on the 12th day. I sing with my Mom to Time Marches on, because it does, with Tracy Lawrence and his guitar, playing just for us. I weep and wail when Tracy fades into Paint me a Birmingham and I remember always that my Mom said to always charge more that $20 for my paintings, because she says I’m that good. My Mom said, (brain tumor fully intact and cancer ripping her from us, unbeknownst to us yet), on our way to Houston for what was our last road trip ever as a family, play it again Coral. Play it again. Baby, can you play it again? Elton John himself shuttles into VCA to bring Tiny Dancers little spirit back to life and her eyes back to sight again. I light a candle for each and every one of us as Makeshift Innocence leaves the light on for us all. I write and choreograph my first dance ever to Move Your Body as Makeshift Innocence comes out on stage and I invite you all in so we can dance together. So, this is how I drive to and from work…just in case you ever wondered.

Inspiration for today’s blog came from listening to the song “Lime Tree” by Trevor Hall, which Aiden sent to his Mom last night…her words in between and your words in between will be much different than mine. Use your own power, and your own voice…I dare you! It is saving my fucking life right now.

Special thanks to Trevor Hall for the inspiration I get from hearing you pour your soul out loud and deep and strong enough to draw my soul up from the rubble, to rise in this adversity. I love you and I thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I copied the lyrics from Trevor Halls Lime Tree Below for you to be inspired too! Thank you Trevor. Thank you so much. I love you.

I spark a match, and watch the candle burn
The wick runs out and then love takes its turn
On fallen angels and broken sounds, we will last past the final round
It took a while for you to find me (find me)
But I was hiding in the lime tree (lime tree)
Above the city in the rain cloud (rain cloud)
I poked a hole and watched it drain out
(I watched it drain out, watched it drain out)
And parallel to the city streets (ugh)
Are broken crowns beneath our feet
But as we walk across the diamonds (diamonds)
We know that love is always shining (shining)
So save me love, save me all the time
I’ll wash you down with a simple sip of wine
Toast my glass to all my loved ones
To let them know that the stars, well they still shine
It took a while for you to find me (find me)
But I was hiding in the lime tree (lime tree)
Above the city in the rain cloud (rain cloud)
I poked a hole and watched it drain out (drain out)
It took a while for you to find me (find me)
But I was hinding in the lime tree (lime tree)
Above the city in the rain cloud (rain cloud)
I poked a hole and watched it drain out (drain out)
It took a while for you to find me (find me)
But I was hiding in the lime tree (lime tree)
‘Bove the city in the rain cloud (rain cloud)
I poked a hole and watched it drain out (drain out)
Took a while for you to find me (find me)
I was hiding in the, well I was hiding in the
Above the city in the rain cloud (rain cloud)
I poked a hole and watched it drain out (drain out)
Took a while for you to find me (find me, find me, find me, find me)
Ooh oh yeah yeah yeah (rain cloud, drain out)
Well I was hiding in the, I was hiding in the lime tree, lime tree, lime tree, lime tree
Took a while for you to find me (find me)
Ooh yeah
It took a while for you to find me (find me)
I spark a match, and watch the candle burn
The wick runs out and then love takes it’s turn
On fallen angels and broken sounds, we will last past the final round